More differently:
Also I did not post on Monday - after a year of posting faithfully.
Instead I went to an open mic which kind of sucked.
Also I am having some slight recent-college-graduate-crisis-trauma-issues-more-words.
ME: "You could go back to graduate school and study things..." and then I look around on the internet and Everyone says: "DO NOT go to graduate school for any sort of social science/humanities degree. You will just post-pone your semi-jobless loafing state for a few years and increase the accompanying panic."
ME: "but there are tests...and and homework... and books and things I am good at... unlike real life or whatever the frick this is that I hate."
ME:"WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY WHOLE LIFE! THERE IS A BLACK ABYSS OF NOTHING STARING AT ME AND NIETZSCHE SAYS IT IS GAZING BACK OR SOMETHING BUT HOW IS THAT SUPPOSED TO FIX ANYTHING NOTHING IS HAPPENING AND WHY AM I LISTENING TO NIETZSCHE ANYWAY." Existential crisis-es are torrential run-ons.
Everyone: "Shut up. Stare out this window."
ME: "oh. I like it. It is green and stuff and the leaves move a little bit. I think I will do this forever."
Volunteer work, babe. Which strangely enough has worked better for me than any other single solution since the misery began for me. Although I have a nasty feeling I'm still postponing the inevitable.
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-Mo
yeah well you happen to be teaching cool stuff like Euclid - I would volunteer to teach that but nobody over here wants that I guess- Sniff*
DeletePardon my self-pity. Also I think that I have been called "babe" ... that is new.
Keep your wonderful sense of humor...and don't be afraid to try something different. I know it sounds trite...but really, humor REALLY helps! And you are hilarious. :-)
ReplyDeleteThank you. Yes well mostly I am bothered by people who make money - I look at houses and cars and things and I am completely baffled and I keep saying to myself, "how do they do it? how DO they do it?".
DeleteCompletely sympathize -- I even just got a new hoodie printed with Monet's waterlilies, hoping it would jump-start my creative process, since I've been working so much that my imagination is frazzled and non-existent. The real world pretty much sucks, unfortunately. Hope you have an awesome Halloween. I recommend jello shots.
ReplyDeleteWorking so much - doing art or working so much making money? I find that I have to work a certain amount in order to do get anything done. I was totally unemployed for a little while and I had a hard time writing for some reason. Creative processes are strange.
DeleteI got to your blog via a newsfeed on facebook, and just read through the last two dozen or so posts, you kept me laughing through them all! Looking forward to reading more :)
ReplyDeleteHooray! Welcome, I am Seize the Absurd. If something makes you laugh, or cry, or want to throw me into a shark pit - please share it. I write and I love when people read it - the more people the merrier.
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